Can't sleep...

ugh.. I really dislike it when I am exhausted yet can't sleep. I woke when Addison needed her first feeding at 1:30, fed her and here I am still awake two hours later. I tried to go back to sleep but just couldn't shut off my mind. So here I am trying to take advantage of some quiet solo time.

John arrived home last night. It was hard being here alone with both girls but in all honesty, it wasn't has bad as I thought it would be. Maybe it is because I was preparing for a nightmare, thus there was no way it would be as bad or because it really wasn't that bad. Addison is sleeping on average 3 hours at night, not to shabby and we have switched her back to formula earlier than planned because I just couldn't stand seeing her uncomfortable. She seems to be taking well to the new similac formula (they have a new formula out that is supposed to be even closer to the likeness of breast milk) and her tummy is appreciating it. As much as we wanted to use Amber's milk, it seems Addison has decided other wise. The good news is Amber has been looking into to donating the milk to the NICU so another baby that really needs it will hopefully thrive on it!! :) We are very thankful to have Amber take the time out of her life to pump for Addison and feel really badly that we can't use it.

Tomorrow, well, today we have an exciting morning planned for Annabelle and I. We are going to have tea with Mrs Claus! The red cross is offering this free to military mothers/daughters and a dear friend called me to see if I wanted to go! I am so excited (maybe that is why I can't sleep?) and can't wait to see Annabelle's face when she sees her. We have been watching The Polar Express movie over and over and she knows who Santa Claus is so to see his wife will be just thrilling! I will be sure to post photos!

Let see... what other news...

Although there hasn't been an announcement about this I am going to go ahead and let you all know that we aren't moving next summer to Carlyle PA but instead we are staying here for another year! John got a call a few weeks ago from the commander and went in to work for this call... (generally that means business) He then calls me on his way home and tells me he needs to talk to me face to face about something that has come up... a question that can either be a "yes" or a "no".. Automatically I think he has been asked to deploy. Something he would love to do but I, not so much. Or maybe he has been asked to take another job asap in Germany or someplace far away.. You know, I have only been married to the military a few years but it doesn't take long to realize anything can happen at any moment. So he gets home and tells me he has been asked to be the deputy commander for the regiment next summer for a year. He honestly thought I would be upset having to defer the war college but I am very happy to stay another year. It keeps Annabelle in pre-school another year and gives Addison some time to grow a tad before leaving. As much as I look forward to moving I really didn't like the idea of having a 2.5 year old and a 6 month old when we make our first PCS. So the big news is we are staying !! We will still be going to the War College but not until the summer of 2010. It really is good news other than we won't be closer to the Evans' family like we hoped. I know Carolyn and John Sr aren't that happy about this news but even for John's career it is a good thing.

Just think... Addison isn't even due yet!? WOW She isn't due until Sunday but here we are with her three weeks old already.. I can't believe it has already been three weeks.. man how time flies... She is just wonderful and I can not wait to see her personality grow... Annabelle is still a great big sister... and still has that silly goofy side.. Right now she is all about big and little.. Last week she said to John daddy has a big belly".. Annabelle has a little belly.. Which gave him a small complex so two days ago she pointed at me and said "mommy has little boobies" and "a big belly" !?!?! We are going to have to work on this.. haha... it was so funny..

Ok.. I realize I have rambled on now for an hour it seems... probably shouldn't have made coffee... :)

I hope you are all well and know we send our love to each of you!
Carolyn